Loads has changed since my last post. I still keep in touch with my kids in Riverside. But we might not be going back next year, and i'm not very happy about it, but we'll see what God has planned.
But anyways, i am now 18 and legal! how scary! :) I went on a cruise two days after my birthday and let me just tell you that was a once in a lifetime experience. I love the ocean, so this was like a dream come true. We stopped in Haiti, Jamaica, Grand Cayman, and Mexico. Not to mention our long days of flying there and home from Florida, but i wouldn't take back any second of it. I enjoyed myself very much! :) But unfortunately I had to come back to the real world at some point, let me just tell you, in some aspects ten days on that amazing ship wasn't long enough lol.
When I got home it hit me that it was time to grow up, start looking for jobs, going to college, and all these things i've wanted for some long and didn't really want them anymore when I got home. I still wanted to be a little girl who got taken care of, I wasn't as ready to grow up as I thought i would be. But I started the journey anyways cause i didn't have a choice lol I'm still jobless and still haven't made it down to the college, but I will be down there soon.
Another new thing that God just slapped on my plate was His calling for me to be in the mission field working with homeless people. Now, don't get me wrong, i've very excited for this calling. But also very scared. It's unknown to me and lately i've been struggling immensely with trusting God. It's a long process that God is going to keep working with me on because He is so faithful. I went to service this morning and my pastor said something that really hit me. He said, "I wonder how many times Jesus is trying to teach us something and we think we get it and He still says, "Do you still not understand?" It made me realize God is more than what I make Him out to be, time for to understand, right?
But my mind stopped working for the moment and my eyes are getting lazy, so i better call it a night. Goodnight everyone! :)
"The Lord is my rock and my fort. He is the One who saves me. My God is my rock. I go to him for safety. He is like a shield to me. He's the power that saves me. He's my place of safety."- Psalms 18:2
Monday, October 11, 2010
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Frustration doesn't even begin to explain...
There has been so much stuff that has been overflowing in my mind and my heart since we left Riverside this last Saturday. One of the big ones is that I never got to say bye. While God was doing amazing things out on the reservation me, jessica, juli, marilyn, and rachel were at the ER because rachel had an asthma attack. Now, i love rachel to death so i chose to go with her instead of stay out on the reservation, but it breaks me now that I didn't get to tell any of them bye.
But there were six kids that God really had my heart clung to when we were there. Donlyn, Eric, Dominic, Steven, Serenity, and Jamin. Now only two of these kids were out on the reservation and that was Donlyn and Eric, but the other four were from in town and we hung with them every single day. They were super AWESOME and fit right in with us. The most amazing thing is that at some point on this trip I got to share Jesus with them. But there were two that were super special to me.
The first one was on the way to teen volume (pretty much a giant youth group in the public park in Omak) and Dominic and I were planning to talk all week about the story of Jesus because he had never heard it before. We sat next to each other on the big ol' RBC bus and I got to tell him about all that Jesus had done for him. I noticed him being kind of hesitant and he began to tell me how he was adopted and so much had happened with him threw that process. But if you ever met this kid you would of never expected this. He had so much joy. I could of had the worst sleep of my life and after i got a hug from him as soon as I walked in the fellowship hall for breakfast he made stuff so much better. God used him to remind me that as people who've had nothing compared to what Dominic went threw and we complain is just sad, we should rejoice in what we have and not be hestiant to just be greatful. Needless to say, i FREAKING LOVE that kid! :)
The second experience I had was with Donlyn, she was out on the reservation. Man, no words can explain what weird and funky relationship me and that girl had when I was out on the reservation. She was AMAZING and went through alot also. But the big break-through with me and her was on Friday before the ER trip happened. I could tell that something was really heavy on her heart. I asked her if she wanted to go and walk around in the little kickball field they had out there, she agreed. We started talking about how she got saved the day before and what that meant, then she just broke down in tears. I asked her what was wrong and she told me that she loved us being here and she didn't want us to leave because it hurt too much. I told her that I'm four hours away and I have to go home eventually, but I will always keep in touch with her. WE TALKED TODAY!! =D As she would say, Love you like a sister =]
Among other things that happened in Riverside, these were the highlights of my trip. I wanted to share this with you guys so you can understand how amazing God is and amazing things can happen if you just believe, follow, and pray about it. Riverside is a place where God is working, and I love it there. My heart changed and i'm pretty sure it's left in Riverside.
I just wanted to share with you guys what's been on my heart.
In Christ's love,
Victoria =]
But there were six kids that God really had my heart clung to when we were there. Donlyn, Eric, Dominic, Steven, Serenity, and Jamin. Now only two of these kids were out on the reservation and that was Donlyn and Eric, but the other four were from in town and we hung with them every single day. They were super AWESOME and fit right in with us. The most amazing thing is that at some point on this trip I got to share Jesus with them. But there were two that were super special to me.
The first one was on the way to teen volume (pretty much a giant youth group in the public park in Omak) and Dominic and I were planning to talk all week about the story of Jesus because he had never heard it before. We sat next to each other on the big ol' RBC bus and I got to tell him about all that Jesus had done for him. I noticed him being kind of hesitant and he began to tell me how he was adopted and so much had happened with him threw that process. But if you ever met this kid you would of never expected this. He had so much joy. I could of had the worst sleep of my life and after i got a hug from him as soon as I walked in the fellowship hall for breakfast he made stuff so much better. God used him to remind me that as people who've had nothing compared to what Dominic went threw and we complain is just sad, we should rejoice in what we have and not be hestiant to just be greatful. Needless to say, i FREAKING LOVE that kid! :)
The second experience I had was with Donlyn, she was out on the reservation. Man, no words can explain what weird and funky relationship me and that girl had when I was out on the reservation. She was AMAZING and went through alot also. But the big break-through with me and her was on Friday before the ER trip happened. I could tell that something was really heavy on her heart. I asked her if she wanted to go and walk around in the little kickball field they had out there, she agreed. We started talking about how she got saved the day before and what that meant, then she just broke down in tears. I asked her what was wrong and she told me that she loved us being here and she didn't want us to leave because it hurt too much. I told her that I'm four hours away and I have to go home eventually, but I will always keep in touch with her. WE TALKED TODAY!! =D As she would say, Love you like a sister =]
Among other things that happened in Riverside, these were the highlights of my trip. I wanted to share this with you guys so you can understand how amazing God is and amazing things can happen if you just believe, follow, and pray about it. Riverside is a place where God is working, and I love it there. My heart changed and i'm pretty sure it's left in Riverside.
I just wanted to share with you guys what's been on my heart.
In Christ's love,
Victoria =]
Friday, June 18, 2010
First blog ever..
So, hello there guys. My blog is going to be for real. I might tell you what happened during the day or I might share things with you that are on my heart. So keep reading and be suprised.
These past months, from October till now have been a giant rollercoaster of emotions. From my grandma passing away, graduation, and soon to come putting my dog down. All of these things have caused me to question lots. One of the major things being God. I've been trying to avoid him and it isn't working out in my favor. It's less than a week till our mission trip and tonight I was sitting here thinking, how i so desperately miss my time with him everyday. How my heart is so heavy for him and i'm fighting it. How i'm going to go and try to share him with these kids who have such hard lives and I'm struggling to even get to know him more. But there is one thing that has been inspiring me to no end when i read it. It's actually a blog and if you want to meet a lady with amazing faith, visit this blog:caledarling.blogspot.com That will make you wonder what you are thinking half the time. As I have been going through all these emotions God has constantly kept a song in my head. Most of you probably know it...
How can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me, how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me, how could it be any better than this?
'Cause You're all I want,
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want,
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
Everything-Lighthouse
Needless to say God has been working on my heavy heart.
That's all for now. Love,peace, and chickengrease =]
These past months, from October till now have been a giant rollercoaster of emotions. From my grandma passing away, graduation, and soon to come putting my dog down. All of these things have caused me to question lots. One of the major things being God. I've been trying to avoid him and it isn't working out in my favor. It's less than a week till our mission trip and tonight I was sitting here thinking, how i so desperately miss my time with him everyday. How my heart is so heavy for him and i'm fighting it. How i'm going to go and try to share him with these kids who have such hard lives and I'm struggling to even get to know him more. But there is one thing that has been inspiring me to no end when i read it. It's actually a blog and if you want to meet a lady with amazing faith, visit this blog:caledarling.blogspot.com That will make you wonder what you are thinking half the time. As I have been going through all these emotions God has constantly kept a song in my head. Most of you probably know it...
How can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me, how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me, how could it be any better than this?
'Cause You're all I want,
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want,
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
Everything-Lighthouse
Needless to say God has been working on my heavy heart.
That's all for now. Love,peace, and chickengrease =]
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